theres always gonna be a time

when you need a friend, but they're never there.
when you seem like everything that means so much to you, is going away.
when everything you believe in so much, has totally failed.
when everything around you seems black and white
when is this gonna hit pause.
how can we ever get through the next day?
how can something so valuable be easily lost.
how can we change everything right side up
how can we make like better
things come and go, so do people.
we set goals to achieve our standards.
we try our hardest, and maybe that is not good enough.
life can be a bitch, so just take that in.

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millions of thoughts running through my mind. I'm eager to spill it, spill it so everyone can hear. I thought maybe if people knew how i felt about things, it would change, as always, i was wrong. Clearly i under estimated our relationship. They come and go, the only positive attribute to that, is learning from our previous relationship, and to remind ourselves, not to repeat it.

just because ..

" treat others the way you want to be treated.."
you gave me no fucking choice but to act like a bitch around.. i've done nothing but good deeds to you.. so tell me, why do you think you can walk all over me...
i'm a bitch, because you're a bitch.. karma is a bitch right
GET@MEBITCH

mhmm

Late nights up, having no sleep nor rest at all.. to busy crying because i have to let it out. I'm reaching out, reaching out far.. trying to find somebody to listen. No one is there, its quiet, i could hear a pin drop. I don't mean to expose this, but it's building up inside of me. It seems like i lost everyone i got.. like i'm a fucking no body. Ouch that hurts, i'm going insane.. might as well call me craazy.

k honestly ..

Liars can go to hell. I hate the fact how i'm always being lied too.. even by the ones i fucking love.. the ones who are close to me. honestly, tell me the fucking truth, and be all snake and shit. HONESTLY, if you're suppose to be my fucking bestfriend, a " brother" to me, a " sister " to me or what not.. THEN FUCKING ACT LIKE IT. Don't fucking go behind my back and lie to me.. or even expooose anything i fucking say to you. Just because you have met new friends.. and you're close with them, doesnt mean you can say shit.. thats not even about your own fucking life. Oh btw.. REAL PEOPLE.. know how to treat others.. instead of letting someone talk shit right to them. like damn ! i fucking tired of this shit. UHH.. you think you're so " real " but i guess in your vocabulary, you misunderstood the word "real".. fuck off !